Tears of silence

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2012-01-03T14:56:00.000-08:00

Java Code Geeks: The top 9+7 things every programmer or architect should know

Timeless

2011-12-22T19:37:00.001-08:00

A touch, the smell, the warmth
the floor that never smelled better
wiggling around to remind me of something
so special…

a dinner, not the same
not the water that rippled us together
not the sound that woke us

come back those moments
the ones that felt like forever
where we can be as wrong as we can be
that the pale night doesn't mind so much

timeless...

Freedom

2011-12-22T18:36:00.001-08:00

Freedom is not what you are
or not what you'll ever be
Its not what you can see or feel
or the tears that you ever gave away

Go on, touch that leaf
The color in it will change
Wander around, do something
Jump up, go round in circles

Smile at whats in front of you
no, seriously…
Give the best of what you are
to whats in front of you…

Freedom, do you get it now?
Break a leg, say hi!
Smile a bunch and feel the smile!

A bang

2011-11-26T21:54:00.001-08:00

There's a place we go
Somewhere only we know
See through the holes
Of what we have been told

Curtains down with you to feel me
Close enough just to keep me breathing

Feel the sense of desire
Of ecstasy, of all thats higher

Come take now what you want
Care so much if you think I belong

Feelings slight the water running
Whisper sounds keeps me burning

Now I feel it all in me
A bang that wants to get me free

Reflections on a rose petal

2011-03-20T21:32:00.000-07:00

A week after his father died, he didn't call me
I could understand the reason why
Heard about it from another friend
It was an attack, he said

Life's fragile moments, I thought to myself
He was like me but what did he feel
Dissonant but arpeggiated at the same time?

At school, he used to talk to his pillow
We used to joke about it
Would the pillow be a gentle friend to him?
Tell him about the stars and distant life

as they danced to the quiet pale night
the smell of jasmine, the sounds of crickets

All this, I wondered, as the roses finally arrived

What he would see in them
That covered his father's body at the last rites
The dead ones, the free ones and ones
which need to breathe out

And then. The silence.
Of glistening memories,
Of trust and dreams,
Of all that had passed and what has to.

Insignificance

2011-03-15T20:33:00.000-07:00

365, 100000, 1, 2, 18...

10, your first pocket money
1000, your first salary
100000, your first saving

24, hours it takes the earth to go around itself
29.5, days it takes the moon to go around us
365, days it takes for us to go around the sun

18, years it takes for us to realize our freedom
25, times you blink in a minute
90, the beats per minute of your heart

1, the first number you learn
2, the second

6775235741, one like you

1, second...I am insignificant

A Liquid Dream

2011-02-20T13:16:00.000-08:00

Soften the touch that makes the sound
Feel the water in around
Shimmering reflections in hindsight
Cruising slowly in the moonlight

A crest, a trough and then again one
It feels me slightly, feels just a little dry
Feels just a little happy, just a little sad

The view across is all you
Spanning the mirrors in all hues
An escape, a walk that'll make you free
A silence that will be serene

The blend of elements so warm and quite
Colors, the chaos all in spite
Take me in, to your deepest desires
A liquid dream and I conspire

Social living

2010-06-05T23:08:00.000-07:00

What is social living? Is it following what the society does? or is used to do? How's following the "rules" the safe thing to do? Why do I think this is not something which is discussed so often?
Yet we talk about all these social networking websites and how people express themselves. Is it really freedom of speech?
Your mom, dad, your sister, brother is on facebook. Do you really want to tell them about your binge drinking escapade that happened last night? How's that for social networking?
Does the word "social" intersect with the word "family"?
Don't know about a lot of history but as far I can see it seems like more its repeating itself. The further we move away from the truth, the further we are categorized as sane. The further we move towards the truth, we are either insane or genius. In my opinion, thats how I would divide human beings.

Loose myself

2010-05-20T21:25:00.000-07:00

waiting for love
just something that would hurt
and feel the feel the bubbles that burst
would sit along and write
see her all alive

and I...
loose myself inside
come... and feel me
breathe in...side

whither space corner
silence leads to rest
up away shimmer
stars that die in rest

nothing is the same as you are
left for something that
breathes for someone else
that soil's away in fear
and doesn't burn in

My Inner God

2009-09-17T18:03:00.001-07:00

Roar the silence

Cut the bullshit

I know you

shut this bit

Let me solo

don't break it

cover up your face

be blessed with

My time, My place

My words its rage

caught up in this reality

let me call my inner god

searing I am at such apathy

the cold river turns colder

Heap the grudge till its over you

smell the sludge of the ego

its foul..

I say, keep it straight

don't mind

lies are a thousand

do not kill this time

A Midnight Train

2009-05-11T20:29:00.001-07:00

say forever say for us

this night is all but just

could've fallen could've gone

a dream to which I belong

this midnight train

going all alone

this midnight train

going far alone, just

wanna take a ride

wanna be with me in this...

kiss of a stranger

just cuddle up behind

the leaves talk in my ears

the drops of rain that smell of your tears

coming to the other side

going all the way

this midnight train

going all alone

this midnight train

going far alone, just...

Lines

2008-12-24T16:26:00.001-08:00

the path that must be
you are one of it
lines after lines
step through the signs

shivering in light
crossing my sight
a cry to feel a part

don't have to do this
we are already so apart

what's the feeling of the rain
washed away in pain
what's the feeling of trying not to run
washed away in time

the river runs, the stars shine
you stay where you are, is it only time
I wonder, if I could be one of you
get that feeling of peace that I haven't knew

I am mine

2008-12-24T16:23:00.000-08:00

just after the other day
my gaze fell upon this fray
it was in me I realized
trying to make me ionize

the calm night, the magic light
those pale eyes staring at such a sight
my every spine stretched to its finality
is this your reality?

I am mine, I am a star
selfless but selfish
crying but not happy
my broken thoughts stand in line
the wind weeping in my senses

today's all i've got you know
my eyes want to speak to me
why won't you let it go?
why won't you let it be?

Cry a moment

2008-07-19T13:11:00.000-07:00

So long its been since we've talked
about war and peace and all that is past
you can feel the rain and the wind
its not the same anymore

people have wept for no reason
with no consolation in sight
far away we are from each other
we still share some pride

war is not a solution, its a way
believing in it leads us astray
no one remembers the fallen
innocent lives soon forgotten

cry a moment,
cry a moment for respect,
cry a moment for peace,
cry for yourself...

remove that blindfold we've been burdened with
choose to see what is real and what is not
one moment at a time, one voice at a time

An Illusion

2008-06-29T21:43:00.001-07:00

Is it love, is it anger
is it fright, is it madness
Is it me or is it you
Is it a moment or an eternal awe

A mirror says a lot
but what if it is a lie?
Am I being fooled, or so I may think

I am anxious, I am a mere human
Embarrassed I stay low
My eyes bear witness to my soul

Brutal and bare, relations and feelings
the invisible thread, the stare of a loved one

hold onto to your seats
the show has just begun

This War

2008-06-03T19:04:00.001-07:00

its lonely, this war
alone I am, you are not
fear of breaking, my heart
long lost the feeling, I wrought

distant dreams of pure peace
falling down like spring leaves
discolored they are in my colored reality
painted red fogging the dead

are you for real, my friend
can you hear my soul crying from deep within
forgive me I couldn't save it all
for I am a broken man, crumbled I fall

wake up to this dream of fire and smoke
and all the words that were misspoke
fear for your life, for its written in stone
live for today and die alone

my end is near, my part is over
goodbye my friend, its all yours
the life I have yearned for is now lost

hope I didn't waste my last breath
hope you'll make it count

Ashes Divide - New Music for 2008

2008-04-18T10:09:00.000-07:00

After a long break, Billy Howerdel (Former A Perfect Circle guitarist, composer) has formed new band called "Ashes Divide". Their new album called "Keep telling myself its alright" is out in stores. You can checkout their song "Stone" on their website.

Youtube links -

Ashes Divide Promo - http://youtube.com/watch?v=MCLarDUzFUs

Stone Video - http://youtube.com/watch?v=MfbQSi6_8RY

My favorite from their new album is Ritual - it goes like

"You and I keep falling further up away,
Its become a ritual,
Stare like strangers straight through into the wall"

Brilliant stuff! Check it out.

Never Been So Real

2008-03-18T22:37:00.000-07:00

hear me now, its said and done
no argument, no false promises
whatever was asked, its been given
no fake words, its all so real

in these times what I feel like
never was, never been, never felt
it took time for this to come
the sweat is gone but I am still here

too much to wait for something so simple
can't it be a little easier
to get what you wanted, to get what i need
its another day, another time...

Sunrise

2008-03-18T22:29:00.000-07:00

I await the silence that fills my blood
Knowing what to expect, fear? I bleed
One after the other, the same thoughts
Wish you were me, wish I were you

I wish, I wish I could see
The sun rise up
The sun rise up

Blackened by the skies above
Reflecting on the actions that I take
Taken Over without having a say
In their darkness, I get lost

I wish, I wish I could see
The sun rise up
The sun rise up

My intentions are scared, my vision blurred
The thirst within me is making me worse
I want to stop this game, I want to feel sane

I wish, I wish I could see
The sun rise up
The sun rise up

Help me get out of this world, of the me and you
Show me the signs which I could live through
Let me cleanse my soul, for this is my wish

I wish, I wish I could see
The sun rise up
The sun rise up...

Rain Drops

2008-03-18T22:27:00.001-07:00

Death is what awaits us all
Forgive them for what you believe
Soon it'll be over, seasons change
Your time will come to bleed again

You're falling down, falling down on me
Frail and pure you cleanse my soul
Without fear you lend your life
In the sweetest moments of your cry

Passion and anger are your ways
Emotions run dry on your wet face
I could see my reflection in you
A relationship I have with a few

Drip, Drip, Dripping till your last breath
From the edge of a window, you hang to death
Be brave now, for tomorrow is another day
Starting a new life, wish I could say

First day at Blogspot

2008-02-09T07:53:00.000-08:00

My first blog! Really excited.